Jar of Heart

I am lost for words...everything happens very quickly..something that I have been praying for, since forever is now coming true (almost)...

sometimes I am scared..what if this is just for a while...what if this will not work...many ifs and buts come to my mind...thousands of questions unanswered, mainly due to the fact that they were never been asked...

Our story is different..people will not understand..sometimes, it does not make sense to myself, too..however, I am coping..believing that things will change when the right time comes...

Waiting is never an easy task...I have been waiting for so long..long enough to make this waiting seems like nothing...at times, I do wish time moves faster...I do not want to wait anymore..I could not wait any longer...at times, this wait seems beautiful...knowing that, at the other end I will get something worthwhile...worth all the sleepless night, all the uncertainties, all the daydreams, all the hopes and prayers..

Being realistic, I know the future will not be perfect..it will be full with ups and downs...it will be full with more uncertainties and surprises...it will be full with tears and smiles, laughters and anger, doubts and worries, joy and thousands other emotions...it will be beautifully flawed...

Sometimes, I do wish we are like other people out there...things will be simpler...less overthinking, less insecurities, less worries, less anxiety....

BUT, I dont think I want that...I dont think I want simple..I dont think my story is like other people's...it is way more than other people's...special in its own way..specially writen for me, to be cherished for all my life...our lives..OURS...

May we look back on these days, and smile...as we realised that we have crafted the best story of US...

May Allah ease everything...

#randomrants